I just realize there are few draft i wrote about my europe trip has been saved in my blog for some time but due to my slow internet connection last time, i didn't manage to post up any of the blogpost. Anyway, it was like so long ago so i decided not to post up any more. Or maybe one day when i got nothing else to talk about i might consider posting it up again.
Ok, back to my life. I was an early childhood teacher, yes, 'was'. Now? I'm not any more, or maybe at the moment. I might go back to the field or maybe not, and yes, I wasted that one year degree studying in the UK, two and half years studying in Segi Subang, and nine years of working as a kindergarten teacher. When I thought I am so used to this field and it is gonna be like 'the rest of my life' kinda thing, it just stopped. I still love children a lot, I still understand children very well, but my motivation isn't there anymore. I'm sick of always being a teacher when I know I can do more than that, therefore, being a kindergarten teacher (especially a daycare teacher) takes all your time that doesn't allow you to do anything else. Do you know as a kindergarten & daycare teacher, you will have to be in the school before 8am? we have to prepare the environment before the children come in, not to mentioned about how the days goes by with screaming and shouting and children's crying and fighting and messing up the environment in the school and when the day finally end, is gonna be around 6pm? or maybe later? It depends on if the parent are taking advantage of the school by spending their own sweet time chilling around and when you called them to pick their child up, they will answer you by saying that they are on the way, they are at the traffic light outside, they are reaching in 5 min and you will never see them in 5 mins, cause their 'on the way' is like 30 mins far, their 'at the traffic light nearby' is always 40 mins away, 'reaching in 5 mins' has never been a '5 mins'. And when you call them again, they just decided not to pick up. When they finally showed up, you can't even give them the 'WTF YOUR 5 MINS IS FREAKING 30MINS OKAY U IDIOT!' (plus a lot of cursing in your heart). But you pay them with 'IS OKAY I CAN WAIT LONGER FOR YOU TO PICK UP YOUR CHILD, SO YOU CAN FREAKING SPEND YOUR OWN SWEET TIME WAITING AT THE NEARBY TRAFFIC LIGHT FOR FUCKING 40 MINS. THANK YOU FOR SENDING YOUR CHILD TO OUR SCHOOL' -.-"
Do you wanna count how many hours we work? probably 9? 10? and guess what? our salary for a daycare teacher? freaking RM850 for a new teacher who work hard, spending 9 or 10 hours in the school, wiping the children poo and puke, cleaning the mess, singing, dancing, teaching, screaming at them, taking care of their hygiene, got complaint from parent from very small mistake, checking tons of homework, doing tons of preparation work for all the event and celebration, getting flu and cough all the time especially sore throat, (I cheat you not, we can have sore throat or no voice for almost 2 weeks and it happens few times a year). But as a degree holder and experience teacher, I don't get so little pay, of course, I get higher. How much? hahahahhahahahaha, let me tell you, As a degree holder, and experience teacher i am still doing that freaking same job in a school but a higher pay with FREAKING RM1500. And yes that is freaking unfair! When I thought everything will get better with holding a degree cert in this field, everything just remain the same. So what can i say? FUCK MY LIFE! F* me for loving children so much that i choose to work in this field, F* me for being so naive thought that when i get a degree back, i will get a better pay. F* me for working so many years but still getting this little pay when everyone at my age has already getting 3k and above pay and able to buy a car or property or whatsoever when I'm still struggling with my tiny little 1 thousand plus salary to survive in KL. F* myself for spending so much GBP in the UK and get nothing in return. F* my life and I shall go die.
I was upset when I was back from the UK and started to work. I didn't complaint much AS that was what I chose to do, but I wasn't happy. My life was just going out in the early morning and come back home in the evening and stay in my room watching some dramas then sleep. It repeats everyday. Until my mum realize that this was not right that her daughter is getting lifeless and not seeing any friend, even when she ask me out on the weekend, I rejected her and rather stay in my room to watch dramas. There were no entertainment and I don't socialise at all. So she decided to ask me to stop working and plan other work for me. She did look for a good job for me but end up something happen (which is another long story again) and things doesn't goes well so I ended up being jobless. I was upset again cause I feel so pathetic and useless by being jobless, but my parent say they don't need me to work and pay for their living and ask me just take my time to look for a better job and they will plan again a better one for me as well. SO? I AM FREAKING HAPPY TO BE JOBLESS NOW! Is like taking a license and say "Hey! I got the permit for being jobless!! woohoo!!"
Now, I'm seriously enjoying my life. I can travel between KL - PG anytime I want, I can plan for trips to oversea, I can lie on my bed for the whole day or whole week doing nothing and etc etc etc... I used to keep looking at my phone and wondering why there isn't any friend contact me? But now? I don't even need to look at my phone at all, F* you don't freaking come and kacau my life I need to watch my dramas and being lifeless now LOL~ (joking la, I still hang out if you ask me to and I whatsapp my babes all the time especially my wife cause if I don't talk to her for a day I will die wtf).
Oh and for the past few month I wasn't that free cause MY WIFE GOT MARRIED LAST DECEMBER!! I am so gonna blog about this for the next post but I got not enough photos to post. Also another wedding was Stephanie Babe, she finally got married to KL so I can see her and hangout with her anytime now!! Ok this two wedding is gonna be another long story to blog about. So please stay tune cause I'm gonna blog about something exciting!!!
Lastly
A photo of me and my SUPER HANDSOME PRINCE WAYNE being silly photo.
Muacks~
