This is for you, people who i love the most. Thank you~

okay~ this is gonna be a long winded and wordy post to start off my new blog!

I have finally set up a new blog. Due to some personal reason, i close down my previous blog (but i guess if you are my close friend, you should be able to know what do i mean by 'personal reason', LOL~). My friend was amazed by how good i am now, they said they couldn't believe that i move on so fast and i looks totally fine now. It seems like there is nothing happen to me and i still looks like the happy me. well, i guess when you finally learned to let go, you will move on. I am not surprise by how fast i can move on cause i know i am that 'cruel' when something hurts me so bad. when i finally decided to let go, there is no way to look back. Come on la, who wanna get hurt the second time? I learned to forgive by setting myself free but not forgiving someone that hurt me so bad and if i forgive him it only means giving him another chance to did the same thing and hurt me again. And trust me, time is definitely the best medicine to heel everything. 

Life back in the UK is all about assignments. I have never been to library that often for my 26 years of life. I have been telling lil chipmunk that if there would be a quota for you to visit the library in your life time, i guess i have spend all my quota to visit the library in just few months of study life in UK. Ya Ya, I know is nonsense, we have been called the library freak. Just to tell you how ridiculously often i have been in the library flipping over those books just to look for one sentence to write in your assignment. I know everyone probably does that in their study life in oversea, BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE I FREAKING DID THAT TOO!! Recently, people around me keep asking how was study life in UK, i showed them the 'meh..' face and one word 'BORING'. Maybe i did not spend enough time living there, Maybe the course was too rush for me to slow down and look around, Maybe all those sad things that I have been through has write off those tiny little happy things that happens around me. If you ask me what did i remembered the most in UK, I will probably answer you - I cried a lot.. more than you can ever imagine. 

I really appreciate people who went through all these with me when things happen. 

Wifey who was not beside me during that moment but she cried together with me, I felt so touch yet sad to make her worried and cried together with me. She was traveling when things happen but she keep in touch with me every sec and talk to me all the time just to make sure i am okay (i feel like tearing while writing this, where can you find such a good wife, u tell me? SJ you better treat her good or else i will freaking tear you apart!! LOL~). 

My lovely babe, bff - XM skype me immediately and watch me cried for the whole night, i guess she was really out of speech in the end cause i non stop crying even she tried her best to consoled me. Thanks babe, i love you so much. 

Not to mentioned my lil chipmunk who came to me immediately to gave me a warm hug when i needed the most, and companied me for the whole day just to make sure i will be okay soon. She seen me cried my lungs out and i know she feel helpless by watching me crying that way. Thanks chipmunk, thank you for being there for me when i needed a hug <3. 

Thanks Stephanie babe who came and talk to me too and give me support. She is so far away yet her concerned and support has never less than anyone else. She help me went through the difficult situation as well when i am having trouble with my assignment. thank you!! 


And those who give me support through FB, THANK YOU AND I LOVE THE ALL OF YOU!! 

AND HEY! I AM SO OKAY NOW!! SEE??

(ok, added this photo so that my first post doesn't looks boring wtf.)

After 8 months of studying in the UK, i am finally back in malaysia for good and will probably settling down in my home town - Penang. I have never thought that i would be back in Penang cause i love big city so much, especially KL. Have been living there for the past few years and i'm so used to hang out with my lovely friends after work, having yam cha session, shopping, chilling on the weekend, dinner with babes and etc etc. life in KL is just amazing. I would say i learned so much by staying alone and being independent back in KL and in the UK but i have finally decided to come back to my home.

I will be continue working with young children since i love children so much. And what will be next? i don't know cause i used to love planning but i guess when you plan there will be hope, and when there is hope, there is disappointment. I learn not to plan cause you never know what will happen next. who knows i might just get married with someone that i have for the first sight? wtf.  


till then.


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